Last Day As A Civilian

Having spent my last weekend before NS doing the same stuffs with the lads from Bendemeer and going Party World KTV with the Dance Group(Sernda, Chris, Joan, Alvin, Kenneth, Yue Ying, Terry...etc), today is Monday, 8 January. My last Day As A Civilian...

I have heard too many stories about SCDF, such as most recruits are Ang Kong Bengs or M*ts. But one thing, do these bengs or M*ts have some medical problems and achieved pes C status just like me ??? I don't think most of them do. Well, I still believe that I can meet nice people, nice friends in my future platoon, as well as a understandable officer.

Meanwhile, my resolutions for 2007 and my following 2 years of NS is that clear. 3 main things :

1) Making Money; Saving Money
2) Doing my Human Revolution
3) Expanding & Revitalising my social circle, esp. female friends (I not that despo or what. Just want to have a balanced gender mix of social life)

I don't wish to carry hopes of finding my first love or what. Make more friends first. That's simple.

Last Post Of The Year

Well. I don't wish to scribble my new year resolutions on this very last day of 2006. I WILL get frustrated if I fail to achieve these resolutions once again, just like this year.

Come January 9 will be my National Service enlistment. Perhaps the best training for my personal life ? Maybe this may polish me up and enable me for victories that I fail to achieve for a such a long time. And not to forget... make more buddies.

At the mean time despite my duty to my beloved country, I will WANT to continue to go for gakkai activities and really fulfill my potential... something which I fail to do so. At the same time, make up opportunities to know new people. You know what I mean...

I don't know whether first love may finally come.(Opportunities are what I need)... but let's get the real basics started.

SOCIALIZING.

Meanwhile, let's learn something new. Be it Driving OR Learning Guitar. This will help me to rebuild and repolish my life.

And May football and singing continues.

As for the world, my family, everyone.

Let's have the BEST year...with happiness.

Happy New Year.

At Least...

One good fortune is that I will spend my Valentine's Day at SCDF Jalan Bahar Camp. Looking back at my "so-called" love life for the past year, it's been a yet disappointing and empty one...once again.

As usual, I not like some others do, have a great "Nu Ren Yuan" that enable them to have mass social circle of female friends. I not like some others who either find their first love or get a new love. It's been a frustrating affair, where I can't even know someone else further even as friends !!!(see previous post)

What I have are poor opportunities to expand my social life, or I should say lack of opportunities? That lack of "Nu Ren Yuan" continues...

Is it because of my facial cum skin problem that I have to deserve all these ? Is it because of my poor way of talking that I have to deserve all these ? Or is it because of my underachievements in life ??? Meanwhile, some can easily find their happiness like "peanuts".

Well... it seems that my poor talking and looks are roots of all causes... despite how much sincerity I can show. Everyone may say my chances may come, but it seems that I do have to really make use of all these poor, lack chances. All these while, promises and self confidence look lost, look doomed.

One friend of mine may joked that SSA has a lot of girls. But the fact is... I still do not have that "nu ren yuan" like before(even though I have more female friends,but mostly seems like "Hi-Bye" ones), and me and A are just very ordinary friends. Blame that poor "Nu Ren Yuan" ? Blame the lack Of Opportunities? Blame the lack of self-confidence? Or just blame Myself?

After some many years of empty promises, disappointments cum frustrations,

Should there be a new year resolution regarding my love life ?

Return of this blog

After almost a year or soo, I finally back to blogging right before this year ends. Next year will be a brand new start as I enter National Service (SCDF on Jan 9).

Throughout this year though, it's been more disappointments than achievements. At the start of 2006, everything looks promising. However, at the end of the year, I am just at the same step which I was at the start of the year.

Here's my review of 2006.

Disappointments

Firstly, I got myself to blame. I failed to do my human revolution. Did I change much for the better ? Did I overcome all my negativities such as laziness ? Hardly though... perhaps going NS will be the BEST for me.

Polylife...

Well, I end my 3 years++ at Ngee Ann Polytechnic on a disappointing note where I can only get a C for my attachment after a struggling yet useful stint at Micron. Well, looking back, my 3 years++ have been disappointing where I failed to :

- Socialize well with my polymates at the start of the polylife where I keep on rejecting outings at the start. However, there is redemption when I turn up for outings more often and start to talk better.
- Grades... what to say ? I fail to get a single A where others can easily roam with at least 3 in their gpas. Am I not that hardworking enough ???

My Mother...

She lost her right leg to diabetes last March...

A aka Love Life...

I don't wish to mention names in order to protect the person soo I call her A. Well, she may be attached but I do wish to know her better and progress well as good friends at the start of the year. In the end perhaps, we are just some "hi-bye" friends.

There's not much chances to get to know her further as she failed to turn up for Coaxillent gatherings. And one thing, there's not much topics to say even on MSN. Perhaps I have the fate to know her, but no chances to be even as good friends...

It's been around half year or soo since I last saw her... perhaps she INDEED not the right for me... just like others before.

I am just DIFFERENT WORLDS from hers.

Failure to fulfill my potential at NRPSD...

WHy do I say soo ??? Cos I fail to make a GREAT impression at NRPSD. for the past few years, I can't really make the bonds among the CICs. Well, I feel I don't really 'click' well with them. If 'click' well, we can be friends that always hang out. But too bad, hardly have a outings with lads from NRPSD... while others' outstanding grades and their respective love lives somehow make me feel inferior.(Sorry I have to say that...but that's how I feel.)

Different Worlds Perhaps...

Brighter Sides

Friends......

Despite some problems in my social life(See Above), there are do some brigher sides...

Bendemeer Clique(Ashwin, Perry, Darran, Ben, Nic, ZB and JK as well as the girls of Panda Gang...etc)

Well... Our long friendships just continue to grow. A great gathering at the beginning of DEC. Let's continue the weekend outings lads...

Coaxillent...

It's been great despite A's absence. A good FD performance =)... Well, may the group continue to grow and I simply enjoy each and every minute of outings.

NP friends.

Everyone may have gone to NS, but I am glad that there's still football at MaO Arena as well as PROM Nite, Outings... etc. But one thing, I still fail to play DOTA.

Attachment at Micron...

My grade may be disappointing. But I enjoy the 5 months stint where I learn a lot. It indeeds me help in preparation for a job after my ORD... not to forget...

5 Months Of Crapping, World Cup Watching...etc.

SSA Youth Camp...

It's been a joyous 3 days where I make new friends. =)

NDP'2006...

I enjoy every trainings and rehearsals and that... Despite All my WOES.

Ok... there's the end of my year review. But I may forget to add something... =P

Thanks ...

Been more than a month since I have blogged. Well... having celebrated my 20th birthday last night at East Coast Park, it is the best birthday celebration that I have ever had.

To YGM Dance Group, NRPSD members, Bendemeer Clique as well as Poly Guys(Ps... too many to name everyone)...

Thanks everyone for coming and making it Possible and the Best.Thanks for the Presents. Really Grateful that you all can spend time to celebrate my birthday. =)

1 year older means that I should have grow more Wisdom and more Maturity. Soo ...

Time to Face the Challenges Ahead Bravely.

Fighting against the Devil of Laziness

Well...I admit I been lazy. What have I done ? Playing Football Manager all along...it is such an addictive game when I manage Leeds in the game, taking them from League Championship to Premiership top 10, from top half to the return to Europe... but I should not be doing all these ??? I am not a real football manager ! If I ever really do that in real life, I could have earn lots of money and not worried about whether my father can change to a more stable job or not cos I am supporting the family instead ! but I'm not a manager in England, I am just a struggling student in NP instead.

I should have put in effort in doing both IS projects and preparing for upcoming ECAD and CSP assignments. But what have I done for these few weeks after the commontests ? WHY am I forgetting my goals ? I know these times are struggling especially with my family matters, I know these times I have not much good mood to look forward for chinese new year and my birthday cos of all these matters, but I can't make myself DOWN cos of all these !

If my mum can say she can't make herself change for the better, like how leopards can't change their spots, then I should SHOW her that as Human Beings, We are not Leopards, we can change things for the BETTER instead of sticking to old ways. And I should Change ...

Let me have the Ichinen to Do that.

Give Me Ideas, Ideas

Not running out of ideas after checking out all kinds of France Travel Package that can assist me to apply my ideas on creating a 10 day route for my IS Tourism Project. Glad that I have something to think about it. Hope I can finish it up and split the work to the rest of the guys later on this afternoon. Now is Friday.

How I wish I don't sleep much. Don't know why I love to sleep a lot... and I was pissed off for quite some time due to one reason. For being overslept despite setting an alarm. What I do in the morning ? When the alarm on the phone sounds, which is the ringtone of Simple Plan "Untitled", I just simply off the alarm and proceed to sleep for an hour plus ! and that's been carried on for quite some time !

Well. I know these days there is no need to go to school due to the just concluded 2 week break and I do not have any commontests this week, but there's no need to sleep soo much. Well, perhaps I should sleep earlier. but I already been get used to sleep after 12 since year 1... zZzZz